Two Is Better Then One Cover By Marcus Gan. Version 2

This song is something meaningful for me and i decided to make a cover for it , hope u guys like it:

Another Way Of Eternity.

I am like super blur now.. staying at Harry's House and decided to blog something since i haven't been blogging for a week :

In life, all we want is comfort,love and hapiness. These are the aspects of fufilling a destiny or you can say its a dream to have all those needs in a 'Package'. Which comes to my point, we sometimes procastinate things as it should be or prediction but what happens when you thought of something that never came true?


Sometimes, its very simple to conclude matters,obstacles and people. For example, This guy is weak,he is ignorant,he is a obssesive manipulater or whatever. When we judge someone, we actually know the character because of life examples or movies. Or sometimes we know a person too well its because we are the same unconsciously. Thus, it is not a very wise thing to do when all you can do is comment but the facts remain as a temporary thought or an oblivirous moment.



What I can say as a partial person is whenever we judge someone , we unknowingly rip our soul in small pieces. I know that because of some misunderstanding amongst friends. As our soul soon tears apart, the word compassion,love,honesty,loyalness will soon fade away from a person just when he is in the brink of a problem.




So, take time to think about things in life. Take it slow , as you blink your eyes you already aged and about to have a terminal illness(woops negativity there), What are you gonna do? Just sulk around a regret your life has ended the way you dont want it to be? Or Are you going to discover the world ? Meet new people,new cultures ,new places and fear nothing but the superior being. That should be the way to eternity.




Take care my readers,



Marcus Gan

Miley Cyrus - The Climb (covered by Marcus Gan ).

Here is a video covering *The Climb* by Miley Cyrus :

I quite like this song cause the lyrics is something to do with successing in life. Although its just the first verse and chorus i hope you can all enjoy it : ) Thank you my buddies.. haha.




Poem of the day:

This one more step i succeed ,
Into your eyes i made believe ,
What gone is gone ,
Forever scared from the stains of passion,



Yours Truly,


Marcus Gan aka Hayate.

Now that the love is gone.

I want to express relief and comfortness. I am detaching myself from you. Its been what've you wanted. I am trying my best. Thank you for the times and memories, but this thing have to go.


SAYONARA!



A word a two can express my soul,
Till today its been never told,
That I did love you its something true,
All the best now i'll try not to miss you.

Just Feeling So Down Lately...

Well its just something I have to write out :



I have been having this feelings lately.. empty , lost , confused and so on. I just don't know why I feel this way.. Firstly, maybe its because i have felt i lost something so dear to me.. maybe its more valuable then anything you can ever buy? I don't know... Perhaps, we need to reconsider what we've said.. I know that we are confused too but hey, its life? I really miss you and thats whats tearing me apart.. Although, it may seems I am still normal to you , the truth is I am still holding on , so that I may still seek refuge onto someone else.. Everyday i reminince the past.. Though it brings tears to my eyes , I continue to be strong so that nothing can shatter me apart. Its something stupid to say , but YES its true... I am still weak help me Lord!



Thank you for your time,



A poem (Thus, he has made it once again ) :




Title : We




If time can undo the hurt,
Make it gone so it will be like dirt,
I still wish upon a graceful day,
So that I may see you once again,

We're sitting out on the balcony,
Tearing sadness,sorrow and agony,
What I've done, I confessed,
To be with you again, that is a test,

I'm holding my breathe once again,
To see how much I can endure this pain,
I want us to back where it started,
Forget the fights, its been discarded,

I would just fly to see you smile,
It feels like years , yeah its been a while,
Please remember what I said,
I am loyal and with no regret,

Though It maybe very hard,
I still love you and thats a start,
How long more do we have to wait?
Such simple things are meant to be said,



Thank you very much,

EMO - - ...

A Special song.

Dedicated to someone i really love.

Michael Schulte - Follow You.


Lyrics:

Everytime you smile,
its like you make me freeze
I just cant react,
youve captured me

I feel like a fool,
standing here and now,
the rain comes pouring down
and Im alone

Where are you now?
Waiting, wishing you were here
Where are you now?
I will follow you again

Its like a hidden wall
that stops me here and now,
trying to come closer
with you

Why cant I just go,
get over it and show
you that I really
do love you

Where are you now?
Waiting, wishing you were here
Where are you now?
I will follow you again

Where are you now?
Waiting, wishing you were here
Where are you now?
I will follow you again

A Story.

Hi guys, i was giving myself silence and i suddenly got inspired by something that made me to write a story. Hope this story can give an interpretion of what i feel.




Title : The Man With Two Sons.
Writer : Marcus


Prelude :



In a long distant land in Germany 1892, there was a man that named Julius. He had 2 obedient and loving sons. Their names were Jeff(Younger son) and Max (Older son ). They lived at an isolated cottage near the outskirts of town. There are a family of hardwork and labour and grow crops to earn a living.They have great patience and dicipline about thier lives and seem to have good reputation amongst the villages.Though everthing seems to be happy at this point , think again.





One day, Julius went to a bar and met an old friend(Greg). They were reminiscencing about the past and all the war that has gone through. At the stroke of midnight, they were completely unsober and had a fight for a minor issue. That fight made julius leg crippled, and he was in a miserable state after then.

When he when back home , his sons were completely in a shock and vowed to their father for revenge. Their father just shook his head an took a rest. The next day they were at the market selling their crops to the villages. They met Greg beside the blacksmith. They confronted him and wanted to take revenge for their father. So, both of them took a sharp steel bar from the blacksmith and hit Greg on the head until he could not move. They rush back in fear and leaving their crops in the market.

The day turned dark and they were at the dining table of their house. Their fathers asked, "My sons, how did business go today?" Max replied , "It was rather bad father, it seems that not many people were there at the market today." Through the tone of his son's voice the father could predict something had happened. So he asked again, "Are you sure that not many people were there today? They just replied yes. As they eat, a door knock could be heard at their door. Two soldiers came in with a corpse in a bag and asked them whether they knew how did he died. Julius was shocked that it was Greg in that particular bag. He looked at his sons and said " Boys, did you do this?" They just shook their heads and the soldiers left them.


At night, the boys could feel Greg's soul tormenting them and they could hear his voice shouting, " Why did you do this to me, WHY?" They got a shock of their lives and before they knew it they suffered till dawn. The next day, they did their same daily routine and pretended the night was a fluke. At the farm their father sat and cried to the skys with sorrow. Max asked his father, "Father is there anything the matter?" The father confessed something that would made both of his sons in anger. Their father said "Greg did not made me crippled, it was I who accidentally got run over by a wagon, IT WAS I" The sons said " But Father , you said Greg fought with you and made you crippled." The father was in silence and replied, "I was drunk, I said things that aren't true. Now that Greg is dead i feel that its my fault he is gone." The sons told their father the truth and all Julius could do was feel even worst.

Suddenly, the skies turned dark and the atmospheric pressure of their place became very high. A hurricane was summoned from the skies, it swept everthing away and the whole family was dead. At the brink of their awake, they were on a state of soul purgatory and they were questioned by the gods in the sky for their sins. The sons were blaming their father for the murder they have caused and the father just accepted the reality and was ready for any eternal damnation to happen. But it was judged that the father was not as guilty as the sons were for he did not commit murder. The sons were casted to hell for their sentence. Julius was given a chance to live his life again for taking the whole blame in account for his love towards his sons. He lived miserabaly and alone after that.




Moral of the story :

Revenge does not solve anything, it only purchases a ticket to hell faster. If you love someone so much, solve the matter without using violence. Although we humans are designed to destroy and love, we must control ourself no matter what to stay away from sins. In addition, always admit you are wrong, in that way you may still be forgiven. In deep love , there is also deep hurt.


Thank you.

A movie, and a special dedication to my bestie.

It was a shiny day when :
The day started when i got a call from bianca, she asked to me go for a movie. We was at Little Tree Cafe with Harry, Charisa , Lok , S.Hoe , Angel , Hon Hoong. We chat, drank and eat. (obviously). After that, Ah lok darling and I went back to my house to wax our hairs and to send my sister to tuition. It rained cats and dogs during the journey and finally reach pavilion late.When we entered the cinema i had no idea on what show we were watching... and it was.......................

WHERE GOT GHOST?? LOL
Directed by : Jack Neo (acted also)

The movie's rating for me will be 6/10, its pretty good cause its scary and funny at the same time. I love the soldiers especially LOL... couple of jokers.. and lastly David Footballfield HAHAHA.... You guys should watch it, believe me its not a waste of money. So after the movie we chilled outside and had a couple sticks of ciggarattes and of course they and their pictures. Only few pictures cause i did not took any : ) :



Me , Ah lok and S.Hoe
They were posing in the middle of the shops and i had to laugh cause they are too funny.


errr... Nice position i guess?
Well i have nothing to say about this pic but its totally wrong = )



A groupie pic! ( not all of them were inside )
Well this are the people who made my day !




After Pavilion, Chilled stoned and finally we went to Lookout Point, I did not manage to get the pictures yet but i will soon update it. ELVA! haha


A special dedication :
Harry & Charisa

I wanna congratulate both of my close friends where they finally are in to relationship = ) cheers to you guys may you always understand each other and of course love each other truthfully.



A poem i convey:


Today is a wonderful day,
Nothing can get in our way,
To see and to hear is what i need,
I got you now babe, that i already succeed.

We may argue, we may fight,
But we love each other, thats what is right,
So I shall sing you a love song,
So that our heats will bond for very long,

As the day pass I speak of peace,
To show u that i cared at least,
May you guys be happy all the time,
It me your friend(Marcus) who created this rhyme.



Congratulations ! May you guys be happy always. KARAOKE TODAY HAHA!

A prayer that i composed to help myself. ( Feel free to read it )

This is just what i have to say (prayer) today:

Oh lord, take my soul to a place of your care,
Though sometimes its dark and i'm in despair,
Jesus sacrificed his life to us, for mankind,
Grant me wisdom to continue my life,


The pain i feel Lord, is unbearable,
But when time past it will be related as a parable,
That i will be steadfast Lord, for times to come,
It maybe hours,days or years to pass but i will overcome.


As i ask for a impossible miracle,
Mend our hearts so that we may see our love,
Its another journey futher then seas or skies,
Only then we may see whats wrong in life,


This is a memory that does not fade,
Lord, i think this is why love is made,
To feel hurt in times of bad,
To feel good in times of good,


Thus, its another feeling that we must endure,
To be a better person and to be more pure,
I bless your name to the highest mountains,
Bless me again lord , so be it as more then fountains,


Thanks guys for your time.

My favorite D.O.T.A players!

Well this is only interesting if you know dota:

Anyway I am in the cybercafe with nick now, i was so bored cause i like quitted dota.. But i want to give some credit to the players in that game as my final respects LOL. SO please check out the pictures below as i will describe them in a little detail. This is some random shit post so bear with me haha... Well it goes like this :

Ks Yamateh from King Surf Team Johor.
He is one of the youngest players, he made Malaysia proud with his carriers skills in the game. His normaly uses heroes like sf,potm,lesrac and many more. He does not speak english and converse in mandarin as shown in few interviews.Anyway, he can be called the world best player because he was voted in the gamers forum and magazine for the whole of last year. Gratz Yamateh hope u can continue to make Malaysia proud with your excellent gaming skills.



Sk-Loda From Sk-Gaming.
He made his name when it came to the GGC tournaments. Sk team has also became one of the top teams last year (2008). Loda uses carrier heroes too and can be counted as the top 5 players in dota history. Anyway, i dont know much about this guy but he can be regarded as in a professional in this game. He quited dota as he say it was not much of a challenge to him anymore.


Ks-Papaxiong from Kingsurf Team.
Papaxiong can be called the ultimate supporter as he uses heroes like a sacrificial lamb.(Demon witch, pitlord , meepo) Because of him Yamateh always get good support and kills. To me, every team need to have a *papaxiong* in order to win the game with excellent support. He does not farm alot and just stand to gank and help his teammates.



MYM | Merlini from MYM team ( used to be ).
This guy is one of my favourite players to because of his zues replay. He could kill 2 stunners back when he was red life by using the fogs. He also recently had a comeback with the Bloodseeker new strat. Well you should check out his replays as they are as dinamic as any other well known replays.



Well those are my favourite players.. If you have any comments please tell me : ) thank you all.

She is everything. ( A testimonial to a special person)

I would like to blog about a girl, so special to me, even i fall in misery without her presence :


CAUTION! : This entry cointains things that are really true = ).



When we first met, it was rather a cold experience for me, maybe its because it was in Genting Highlands. I was attracted by her , and most of all her smile = ).I wanted to ask for her number, but she would not give unless i would ask her face to face. Anyway, at the first day we went out, i was so quiet just thinking and thinking.(Does she knows i like her and how shy i am to tell her that ?) She is a very care-free person.She treats everyone like good friends and above all she always makes me smile.



She makes me feel like there is no other person in the world that can share the feelings we share. Although , its been so sudden we became together, i felt like i knew her for years and years.I feel so comfortable when she is by my side, and i would just gaze at her and just make sure she is always happy.I had to went through some of her friends to actually get the blessing from them.Well, i felt anxious, nervous to think that her friends would disagree or something but i guess that turned out allright.We always communicate through the phone and sms and that made a daily routine to at least say good night or morning to her eventhough I maybe busy or doing something.



My love to her inspired me to create poems and songs to her.I have not done it to any of my previous girlfriends and i guess she is the first. When we first started out, she asked me to ask my parents for their blessing and she also gave me some rules to follow (7 to be precise). It was rather to be faithful and to modest.These simple things make me more exicited then going to holidays or even doing a favorite pastime.Everyone calls her a princess i guess, but to me she is more of a queen : ) .At the begining , sweet talk wasnt a bonus for her i guess haha... maybe because she thinks that oh.. this is another sweet talker.. But i meant what i said haha..



Everytime she is in a situation, I tend to worry or get protective. Guess this feeling was a mistake that lead us to a huge argument. The point is, everyone has weaknesses in us and the only solution to the problem is negotiation and understanding. Sometimes I dont even know what i am doing, at one moment I pretend not to care but in my sleep. its like images and voices whispering to your mind that something is missing something is undone. What i just want to say that thanks for your love. I indeed truthfully love you.

Cheers to you yinky.


Sincerely Marcus,
(Whats the point being alone when she is in your heart? ) ,

What a Gayish(happy) DAY !

Thus the day was gay, because :
I woke up at harry's house, when suddenly 2 mysterious characters were beside me.... I was very blur , When suddenly............. THEY START TOOKING PICTURES ! LOL... first was Ah Lok my darling.. and the second was Charisa my small little baby sister hahaha...we chilled at harry house, he gave me half a glass of vodka mixed with ice and water zzzz... made me high for 2 hours.... After that we got into the car, Took gay pictures camwhore and went to red bean cafe which is situated at Sri petaling.... After having nice conversations, it was time to go... I spent my day wisely and went to Yinkys House just to see her =) went home emo time, wrote some random crap as you can see in my second post with the poem.. Did not sleep till 12am And thats where i am now?oh yea and attention to the ladies, this pictures are for fun and we are straight LOL =)

Below are the pictures that are in random order, Forgive me for not arranging it i was too lazy:





Eh.. So cool la wei Initial D post la wei! (swt)
Well this is me and ahlok together with our sweetheart angela.




God... This is some gay shit.
Me and Ahlok doing some random pose for the fun of it.



We are a couple LOL.
I laugh so loud that my tummy ache evertime i see this picture.(in harrys car)



Me and my small little sister Char char - isa.
I just woke up so don't blame me for the just-got-up-from-bed look = )




Errr... Family Picture = )
We are having many laughs! notice my red-ness i was high on vodka!





Well I have to say i love you guys! This was one of the Funny days that we shall remember Haha Ciouzzz.

My best buds.

This is a special post i have to dedicate to my dear four best friends:

First of all, i have to tell you guys how did I met them. We were enrolled to this school called Sekolah Menengah Stella Maris located at Kuala Lumpur. We started off as school mates, now we hang out almost all the time every week! haha.. thats really hard to believe but yes its true. When i first know them, they spoke cantonese and I was a legendary banana for sometime. After hanging around with them i improved my cantonese and i can even converse well already(even the vulgarities) LOL. Anyway,we call ourself brothers cause we are closer then best friends.. yes it sounds gay its the reality.. Each of us understand each other very well , you can even call us the pentagon.(made of 5).So enough of the intro let me introduce you to my friends, they are :





Nicholas Wong Weng Eu a.k.a xN!ckiix @ Tor sui kar.(to the left)

This fellow over here is born on the same month as me, we have some similarities. As in EMO king, sensitive and a fun fellow to hang out once you get to know us. We were at the same class in form 1 and 2. He shifted to Sri KL when it was form 4. Anyway Nick is a fun guy , he is the person that i can understand my jokes and craps when we are talking HAHA ! We sometimes fight over stupid issues like games,girls or whatever but we still talk to each other back cause its like a bond or so call *Brothers*. He is sometimes selfish and a cheapskate ( SORRY NICK ! ) but he still one of us what to do??? Our parents know each other after many stupid occasions like ponteng in the middle of the night and stuff LOL. He sometimes pisses me off with his FUCK YOU AR! NGOR LAN CHI DOU AR? haha... that words makes me want to rape him HAHA. He lives in a nice home at Tan Yew Lai near Oug.. His parents are into the selling car business and thats a good advantage for him i think.. Anyway, we used to hang out in cybers every week to play D.O.T.A and it can be sayed that we 2 are the best in our team because of the *Imba Dedication*. He currently studies at B.A.C college located at Brickfields. Thanks to him I got to know a girl that I really Love so much = ) . He has an *apple chariot* at his fort, known as a Kelisa haha that he loves really much. He sometimes suprises me with his sudden appearance in my house or some friends house. He is also known as the *Rikimaru* as he likes to ahem... You guys figure it out. He is really a pussy as in every games we play he will use a range character so that he can hide or *suk chun* from behind.. LOL thats his style! Well there is still many other things about him i havent mentioned but overall he is a great friend that i treasure.

Koon Hon Hoong a.k.a Heero a.k.a Girl sucker.

To start off with this guy, he is a really funny guy. We always laugh because of our funny chinese quotes like : Wo hung liaw liaw LIAO ( broke / out of cash ) haha.. He is my driver who patiently waits for me evertime he fetches me from my house with his GREEN Hyundai Getz ( Emo Crew). Besides that , he is the richest fucker you can find in sri petaling. His house is like the biggest and is my 2nd home. = ) Though with great wealth you would not believe that he is the most humblest guys around! thats one of his greatest qualities... I normally skip college just to go to his house to overnight! he knows i love the Tropicana Orange Juice and he actually gave me a whole giant bottle for the night haha LOVE HIM! Anyway, he studies at Armpit... i mean APIT a.k.a UCTI college at bukit jalil. He has crush on many girls and sometimes is confused about which he like LOL. He is con-lan-firmly shy if he meet new people.. and he is a crazy drinker that always takes raw black label and drinks it like water. He is my finnalcial manager cause i always borrow money from HIM LOL!!! He sometimes ignores us because of girls but what to do thats him! haha = ) i would like to thank him and say that he is also a friend that i cannot ever lose. hehe.

Yoong Sher Lok a.k.a Unknown. (To the right)

This guy is the most quiet-est guy you can ever meet in your life.. Haha but when with us he can talk to us very comfortabaly... So, to start off he lives in Kepong, Segambut area.. He is a fun guy cause he is sometimes very hyper and funny.. Loves to talk cock with me and the guys and our Pudge(omg) in dota... (Every GAME) LOL! I sometimes stay over his house so that we can stone and emo at a corner in the middle of the night haha.. He just recently went to N.S thats why you can see his hair very short =) See the picture above? 2 crazy fellows eating ice cream in Genting Highlands. We sometime do gay stuff LOL... for example we took hot bath together in camerons recently LOL!!!!! He does not have a car yet.. He studies in a college ( God knows) near klCC ahahahahaha i also dont know whats the name yet.. He is the life and soul of us when we got out.. so you know la how important is he... He also converse with me in cantonese and we go back to english if the words are getting harder : ) ... he is also our advisor lo.. tells us what to do and how to do in certain stuffs.. and a good councellor to harry = ) ... Although i have to send him to Kepong sometimes, its worth it and i have to say he is a friend that is very hard to find : )...

Harry Choo Cho Lum a.k.a Hybrid.

He was the first friend i made when i entered Stella Maris.. I went up to him and said: Lengzhai you play Ragnarok Online?? He was a quiet guy that time and we became good friends after that.. haha how absurd we both could be at the time.This is one of the closest buddies you can get, he lives in jalan alor, a food critic like me = ) Has high ambition to become a cook. He has a Black Saga that he named Angela HAHA... Has a girlfriend that is very SCARY! LOL He and I share alot in terms of problems,games,views,oppinions and so on. He is a very steadfast guy, he stands up on what he belives in and fucks whoever get in his righteous way.. (even teachers LOL) He has many good qualities, he is a simple minded fellow that does things for us nicely.. I and harry mostly get along the closest... maybe its because we hang out too much hahah!!! So what i can say about him? He can wear all of my clothes and i can wear all of his clothes so thats something that is good LOL... He is currently studying at the same college as Sherlok but i dont think that really suites him.. My mother always ask about him and treats him like a son too... haha.. He sometime craks up jokes that can make my tummy upside down.. Allthough there is much more to say about harry.... I cant write anymore cause its 6 am in the morning now LOL so dont emo ar harry i love you ! haha...

Thats about it about my 4 good buddies.. I am Lucky to have great friends like them.. I hope you guys can have your good buddies like i have mine = ) Peace out brothers forever.

Sincerely by me Marcus.

Have you ever feel so confused?

3rd of September 2009 , 4.24 am.

I was back home after a great supper with my mom. I went to the room. Changed and chucked my emo-ness to a side. As they always said medidation calms your mind and your soul. So i tried it out for about 15 minutes. It was a great relief and i had to do something instead of wasting my time on online games.Took a ciggarette, skimmed through my facebook and i finally decided to write a blog. It was hard to accept the harsh reality from a person that you really love. It seems only yesterday I was holding her on my arms, but now it feels like i've lost something and i can't do anything about it.

So, enough of my sentimental talk. If you ever love someone that bad , make sure you are willing to take risk,worries,troubles and many other negative feelings during the bad times. I've learn to control myself from anger as hard as i can. That was the promised I made to myself to retribute the pain and feelings that she has already felt. Though there wasn't a gap within us , it seems there actually were.


(please skip the below paragraph if your are not interested in religous or spiritual oppinions).


THE MEANING OF LIFE?


As Jesus loved the world, he gave his blood and flesh just for the salvation of mankind. That is something no one can ever do in this world ,believe me.No love can be so strong than his and this is the reason christianity has become a part of my life and how my faith was strengthen. Discovering ourselves from oblivion that is the thing that we should do in order to have eternal peace.



I always wondered since I was 16, is life just like this? (Studying,Working very hard for a living, Getting married , Get old and Die?)
I always have this doubt and i think that life is just like a match stick. When you are just conceived you sparked and lighted the darkness for a little time. After you are out , you just die off like any other match stick. The only thing I have to say to those famous or influential people, is you are like any other match stick u just shine brighter thats all. That is why people are envious to each other. So I hope someone in this world can finally find out whats the meaning to life, and finally share to people like me and to those who are still in the abyss of finding out what is it to life. PEACE OUT!


I composed a poem to Yinky = ) hope you guys have the time to check it out.



This a poem i compose in the middle of the blur:



To a special person that meant the world to me :


I ask of a tale more happy then words,
The story was worst then hurracaine or floods,
Seek the to the sky i onced said,
The shadow I see is going to fade,

Thus time proves its course,
Telling you why this love is even worst,
Forbidden or unhappy was not on my mind,
It was you that clear my skies and we were destined to find,

Un-raveled this complication to its simplest form,
The reason why is behind those songs,
The poems that seeks to your heart,
Now the distance is futher then apart,

I still have the emotions to say,
That another day is what we owe ourselfs,
Believing on what is wrong and right,
Thats the message which i convey, brighter then light.





Sincerely, True by me Marcus